Langley's Blog

This is what I am right now. So I haven't slept since 10am yesterday. Hmmm... 37 hours and a bit right now.

Like I said busybusybusy.

I cooked a roast dinner tonight and most of my time has been consisting of answering the question: Compare the concept of the social contract in the work of Rousseau and Hobbes


Funfunfun.

So yeah, I am going to head off to bed before I start to go insane (y) Also, Alkaline Trio tickets are on pre-sale tomorrow as my email tells me. Win.

Ta ta.
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Alkaline Trio - Sleepyhead

Let's talk about the weather, let's just chat about anything and everything. We'll talk the whole world out of things and then even more. What do you want to? Where do you want to be? I want to be right here, right now. I just want to talk, I want to talk because I like the sound of your voice, I just want to talk.

Is that too much in the times that we live in that I just want to talk it all out and not have to worry about things? Get to know me, I mean really know me. You might like it. You might hate it. Either way, you'll get to know me and the masks in which we inadvertently wear can fall into oblivion.

We'll just keep falling and falling and falling and hopefully something or someone will catch us. Will it be you? Who knows. All I know is that right now it's not about the destination, it's the journey that matters.

Ta ta.
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Mudhoney - Something So Clear

Actually, this is an edit. This is a call. This is a call to all my past resignations; It's been too long.

Fuck what today was meant to be. Days are never what you want them to be when you've planned them to meticulous detail. That's why I don't make plans. They never go right.

I can't wait until I grow up, like really grow up. Where there isn't the pretenses and where promises are kept and never broken. Lunch? Sure. I'll be there. Be there.

I'm tired of making love to a memory. I want to trade them for something real. Something substantial. Something that is tangible, something that I can touch... Something. I have been in this places a million times and I know that I will be a million times more.

I'll just keep flying the flag high and pray that some wind blows my way. Smoke signal? Something. Morse or flags. Something is going to get the message through to someone, someday.

I guess that they're just not tuned into the frequency that I am transmitting. But how does one get a new transmitter or change their frequency? What's the frequency, Kennith?

Just say it like you mean it. Say it like you mean it. You say it like you mean it.

Just say it like you mean it...

Ta ta.
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Rosie Thomas - Let It Be Me

Today was alright, not the best of days and not the worst of days. Nothing great or momentous really happened. It was the day of rest before the writing starts and the pages start to fall from my printer, over and over. Page upon page.

Today consisted of going to the pub to watch Wolverhampton Wanderers which is the team from where I am living play Manchester United and Wolverhampton lost 1-0. Ah well. It's just one of those things, Leicester City, my team lost 2-0 but my rugby team won so swings and roundabouts.

Got a phone call from Laura today, just out of the blue. That was lovely because I love getting phone calls and I love talking to people on the phone. It's what I love doing the most when two people who are miles and miles away are curled up in bed with food and snacks and just talk out their problems.

I am a pretty damn good problem solver when the issues in it do not concern me, when they do; I am the worst in the world. But I am getting better. Problems seem to melt away when you share them with out people, I find this really to be true apart from my problems. Other problems melt away on me but the problems that I have cannot be talked out. They have to be lived out, just like the pages in a story book, or an untried and tested book on theory. They seem to get worse before they get better.

Every second folds into every minute then to every hour then everyday. Every single day is a new page with each year is a new chapter but there seems to be sub chapters and continuing characters. Some fade away into oblivion whilst some end up dying and others are there to stay for as long as the writer chooses.

I am the writer of this story book, this fairy tale and one day it will have a happy ending. One day soon or one day in the future? Who really knows? I just know that one day it's either going to end with a catastrophic crash or a crescendo.

Either way it's going to end; by my hand or someone else's.

Ta ta.
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Bright Eyes - You Will. You? Will. You? WIll. You? Will.

There is an album that I go back to every few months and one of the songs from the album is tonight's blog is a song from it. The album is called 'Dust' and I shall have it on here for you to check out.

It's one of those album's that I just get something new from every single time I listen to it and I thought it would be nice for you to check it out if you haven't heard it before.

I am here, totally full after a massive late dinner and I do like this feeling, for a while anyway.

Tomorrow is going to consist of watching the Rugby, cleaning and essay writing. That's a good fun day right there! Or you know, something else would be nice.

Doubt that anything else is going to happen apart from that but that's okay because this is how I like life going at the moment.

Life is really good at the minute with the only very rare dark spell.

I got to talk to Laura last night for an hour which is amazing because we got to catch up and things, which is always amazing. I love chatting to her.

Spoke to Ms. E too today. Actually, I am bored of saying Ms. E, I shall call her by her real name: Ellie. Why not? She's not on myspace, facebook, blogger or twitter so there is no way for those who I don't like to contact her and I know that they still read this blog. Using a new analysis tool, I have found out that in the UK, that Cardiff is the fifth largest place in the UK to read this after London, Bristol, Birmingham and Wolverhampton. Interesting when you don't want people in your life and they still seems to prod and poke around mine.


This coming week has readreadreadworkworkwork written all over it.

Busy, busy, busy, is what we Bokononists whisper whenever we think of how complicated and unpredictable the machinery of life really is.

Screaming Trees - Dust (1996)



1. "Halo of Ashes" – 4:04
2. "All I Know" – 3:55
3. "Look at You" – 4:42
4. "Dying Days" – 4:51
5. "Make My Mind" – 4:11
6. "Sworn and Broken" – 3:34
7. "Witness" – 3:39
8. "Traveler" – 5:22
9. "Dime Western" – 3:39
10. "Gospel Plow" – 6:17


Download at Mediafire

Ta ta.
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Screaming Trees - Look At You

So, today has been a very good day, just like the last few. I am liking this a lot. I have started something, I don't know where it's going to go or what I am going to do about it, at the moment, it's just for fun and to let my creative flare shine for just a moment. It doesn't have a title and it can't be shown on here; it's written on a typewriter. It is five pages at the moment and I like this, I don't know where it's going to go or how long I am going to do it for.

It's about how the world ended. About a man called Aaron Whitman and what he saw.

It's interesting where it's going but it's complicated. My fingers are black though from changing the ribbon on the typewriter, this is how real writing is, I think.

"I wish I could show you what happened. I really do. But there isn't any electricity anymore and I don't know if anyone is going to read this....


Enough about the plights of what I can only assume is the oldest person in the world, let me tell you about how the world ended and how I became the last man in the known civilized world.

This is how the world ended..."

That is five lines from the second page, missed out a whole chunk there at the start with the '...' but it's interesting to me.

Anyway, lectures were good, and I got to speak to Ms. E today too, which was nice. We're chatting for a while everyday. It's different and interesting at the same time. Tomorrow I need to start my essay on Machiavelli, Hobbes or Rousseau. One or two of them for the essay. It's going to be fun. I love theory.

Ms. Alexandra Hemrick commented something that made me think:

I'm so happy things are going swimmingly. I knew that they would turn around eventually :) Isn't it always that something wonderful saves us just when we're at the brink, holding on for dear life, fingernails scratching at the edge for anything left to hold on to about to give up and no sooner?

It's always in the nick of time isn't it? Just when things aren't going well, after a while just before you give up hope, things just start coming together. It really is when the fingernails are scratching at the edge for anything left to hold on. It really is. At the moment I have just about one hand on the edge and that's about it.

I am climbing up slowly, but I think the weather is helping me get through this, it's been glorious here.

Slowly slowly catchy monkey.

Ta ta.
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Incubus - Drive

Like I said yesterday, fuck 2009. 2010 is where it's at!

Today has actually been an awesome day. This morning I passed my driving theory test, so that means that all I have to take is my practical test and I will be able to drive! Win!

I spent the day with Ms. E. That was really good fun. It's so refreshing to be around someone who I can go around and go shopping for things in places like River Island, Bank and House of Frasier. It's nice. She was getting make-up put on her in the House of Frasier so I was in the designated 'man chair' reading the paper.

Spent around eight hours together and it was just nice, filled with alcohol, obviously.

Also, I got a university lecturer to give me a reference for when I do my masters, so today has been a really good, fun and productive day.

I am loving this year more and more as every day passes. This year I am going to graduate University, see Pearl Jam and Hole and that's just the first six months or so.

I just can't wait to see what is around the corner. Black dog? What black dog.

Also, on a sad note, Winston Churchill's grandson also named Winston Churchill died yesterday and Michael Foot who was the former Labour leader.

Tomorrow is going to be fun because I am going to sort out other things which is going to be good and I have two lectures. That's going to be fun too.

Saturday I am going to either see Ms. E and help her move into her new place or I am going to watch the rugby in a local pub. Leicester Tigers are playing and either or is going to be amazing. Sunday, I think that I am going to be going to the cinema with Ms E. too Alice in Wonderland.

Life is great and I really just can't complain :)

So, with a fantastic day at a close...

Ta ta.
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H.I.M - Scared To Death

So, today my typewriter arrived today. I'll do pictures tomorrow, the camera is out of battery. It's so fun to type on and things. I really do love it.

One thing that I was thinking today was fuck 2009. That was a shitty year. This year is awesome. I should this week meet up with Ms. E as she can't move into her house (wherever it is) until Saturday. So then I think. Doesn't bother me, I am used to things like this. Not seeing the girl that I like, that is.

Anywhoo, fuck 2009. 2010 is where the cool kids are. By cool kids, I mean me. I have booked a ticket today to go and see a band that I absolutely fucking love. It now consists of two yanks and one brit. It has a female singer and she lived in New Zealand.

Hole! I am going to see Hole on the 5th of May in Birmingham. How awesome is that?!

I have waited to see them for.... well, since I was around 14 years old or so.

I can't wait. March - H.I.M, April - AFI, May - Hole and June - Pearl Jam!

Come on! Life is brilliant and I love it. No drama, no little kids and no little kiddy games. Shame I am actually broke. Ah well, who cares?!

Life here is finally coming together better than I ever thought that it ever could.

So many things and friends and so little time!

Tomorrow, I have a theory test that I have to pass. I'll do some revision later.

2010, I love you.

Hope you liked the VBLOG's from yesterday.

Ta ta.
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Hole - Boys On The Radio

Here, have a present ;)



Fiona @ Acoustic Dreams & Hardcore Screams is here.

I think that this says it all really...

Oh, the questions that I have been asked:




Juliette is here.

Michelle is here.
Ta ta.
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Pearl Jam - Present Tense

Today I got woken up by Ms. E calling me. That was nice I do have to say.

I spoke to her on the phone for around TWO hours. Odd, eh?

Hmmm.

What have I done with my normally unproductive Sunday?

I cooked! I really pushed the boat out today in all honesty. I cooked a Sunday roast with everything.

Cooked the chicken from scratch and everything! Lemon and garlic up it and may I just say... Oh my god!

And the roast potatoes were magnificent too. What a good meal.

Back to Ms. E. I might be meeting up with her on Tuesday. Who knows? I don't know where this is going really, but I... I don't know where it's going. Plain and simple.

I would love for it to go where I want it to go, and I've got to make it work, I guess.

Something in life has to go the way that I want it to really, doesn't it? It's about time that something good was coming my way and why can't this or something similar like this be going my way? I would like it very much in all honesty.

I need someone there to get me out of bed in the morning. I am hopeless by myself really. Honestly. Truly. I am awful in the morning unless someone else is there. They don't have to say or do anything, just be there when I wake up, then I know that the day is going to be a good one and that there are things to do, even if it is to go and get coffee. I used five two lettered words just then in a row. Odd.

Anyway.

Tomorrow is lectures and things which is going to be good because I really do actually enjoy my lectures on a Monday even if this week it is a continuation on Rousseau.

I need to find my animus, if I had any, in a different life or whatever, it would be nice to have some drive. Some spirit.

Life to go good would be nice, plzkthnx.

Oh, is there anything that you want to know about me?

Ta ta.
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Okkervil River - Listening To Otis Redding At Home During Christmas

Today was a good day. I went to Leicester to got to the football which is always good and it was against Nottingham Forest which is even better. A local derby.

We won! It was awesome. 3-0. So much fun :D

I went for a curry and spoke to Ms. E on the phone a fair few times. The journey which was going to take around two hours. Maximum and that is return, took 5. Brilliant, eh? Well, I got some reading done and Derby train station is quite nice.

That's all today has been really. Football and curry. Good day.

Ta ta.
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Okkervil River - So Come Back, I Am Waiting

So, today hasn't been that filled with exciting things or anything of real... anything. I did however spend around two hours on the phone to Ms. E.

Tomorrow after Leicester (to see a football match) on the way back I shall see her in Birmingham and who knows?

It's lovely to have someone to talk to on the phone again. And someone who is a woman too, who can go out for a late drink.

Who can legally drink too. No parents, no religion just talking and drinks.

Love love, kiss kiss, blah blah blah.

Ta ta.
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H.I.M. - Sleepwalking Past Hope