Langley's Blog

This is an interesting day for me.

I really don't know what to write today because I have been in bed pretty much all day; all I've eaten is two bowls of crunchy nut cornflakes and milk chocolate raisins.

I thought that I'd upload a song that I love and a version of it that I love even more.

"Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me
As her body once did

All five horizons
Revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn

Ooh and all I taught her was everything
Ooh I know she gave me all that she wore

And now my bitter hands
Chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything

Oh the pictures have
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything


I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by
Some kids at play

I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear

Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin
Round my head

I'm spinning
Oh, I'm spinning

How quick the sun can, drop away...

And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything "


Pearl Jam - Black Live 2008 MA, USA

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Goot - The Great Vendetta

Went to Cardiff and I was home by around 21:00ish which is a first this week to be sure. And this is the first blog that I've written not being drunk this week also.

Fun times, Eh?

Had kind of an odd morning but you know, you always do. And Just a really nice relaxing day with Naomi.

Now, thank fuck, she's asleep and hopefully it'll stay that way because she really does need some sleep.
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Pearl Jam - Better Man

Went out drinking tonight too and I really had a fun time with the usual lot :)
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Air Five - Please Don't Change

Might be a little bit drunk whilst typing this.

Really good night, was with Ruth, Parsons, Mel and Alexandra. Also, Wil and Sam but they left. Gay.

Oh well.

Really good night, pretty wankered (y)
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Del Amirti - Ceasefire

Today looked like it was going to be uneventful but it wasn't.

Alex and Sophie broke up.

Not brilliant so we went to Riley's. Did some drinking, it was good then Alex had to go and meet Sophie to collect her things. Wil and I went to his dad's house which was interesting.

Then we went to the Lion and had a beer and back to play pool, then we wandered the streets and went to Westerleigh common and had a fire and smoked :)

Really good day, got home at 05:00 :)
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Last Days Of April - Aspirins And Alcohol

I saw Naomi today :)

She really is my world and I love her ever so much. She means the world to me. I just love being with her, she just makes me so happy and keeps my world turning. :)
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Sugarcult - Majoring In Minors

Today was awesome, didn't go to stonehenge because Clive arrived two hours late Grr.

Anywhoo, I am getting more and more paranoid about things (y)

Oh well.

I had a great day and that stuff isn't going to happen 'till I am good, ready and prepared!
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Plain White T's - All That We Needed

I see Naomi tomorrow. We're going to Stonehenge if everything goes to plan.

But this my Father we are talking about. I might have a shave tomorrow, I think that I will because it's getting too hot, a beard is more of a winter thing.

Surprised I haven't used this as a blog title to be totally honest when it's one of my favourite Pearl Jam songs, you know... ever.

But Naomi in 13 hours from as I am writing this and that's going to be good.

I miss her.

Tomorrow is going to be... Interesting.

"
But the strangest thing to date
So far away
And yet you feel so close
And I'm not gonna question it any other way...
There must be an open door."
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Pearl Jam - Come Back

I love this song, I have been looking for their album for ages and didn't know who it was. Now, I have it :)

Just really happy at the moment, the only way I could be happier if Naomi was here.

God, I am loving life just at this very little moment, I shall go back to hating it later. I have my friends, my girlfriend, enough cigarettes for a while and a packet of Malted Milks by my bed. What could go wrong? Well, a lot of things like losing all of those things, but you know, it's all good right now :)

Tonight, I think that I might sleep, and I hope I dream of good things. I really hope I do :)
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Pendulum - Propane Nightmares

Had a really fun time today, tbh. It was the most fun I think that I've had when I've not been with Naomi for a long time. Just during the whole day I was thinking, "Christ, we are growing up aren't we?"

It is a good thing though because I like being like this and things are just, slowly getting better in nearly all area's, the only one is Naomi's family but they're just gay and christian. I know that's it's spelt with a capital letter but it doesn't deserve one therefore it's not getting one.

It was just nice to be with people who I know and really love because that doesn't happen that much it's usually with people that I hardly know and it makes be a little on edge because you don't know if you're saying the wrong or the right things around them.

There will be photo's and the such like on myspace when I am on my desktop tomorrow and there might be a few video's that are, in all honesty, made of win, on my jewtube channel.

I love my girl :)
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Portraits Of Past - Implications Of A Sinkhole Personality

It would like to be free from all of this.

All of these thoughts, all of these feelings, just all of this. I just want to be free from all of this. My head isn't getting any better.

I just want to be free of "Heartache Every Moment..."
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H.I.M. - Heartache Every Moment

I haven't felt like doing that much today. I really can't be arsed. I feel all itchy and not that brilliant. I've had a head ache for hours and I don't like being me.

I really don't like being me. Just wish that I didn't think what I think, feel what I feel and dream what I dream because it's not that brilliant tbh.
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Quietdrive - Maybe Misery

It's happening again...

"Gotta cut away, clear away.
Slip away and sever this.
Umbilical residue,
Keeping me from killing you... "
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A Perfect Circle - Orestes

Nothing tonight; the night was good. Then it went shit.
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The Smashing Pumpkins - Where Boys Fear to Tread

I love this song.

But yeah, my day. I was going to write a really long winded blog about things and stuff but I really can't be bothered tonight because all I have done is fixed my brothers computer, been on various websites and messed around with my ipod.

That's about it.

http://rs77.rapidshare.com/files/125239252/Safetysuit-Life_Left_To_Go-2008.rar

Song with the title of my blog is in there and see if you wanna listen to it.

I don't know if people actually download the things that I put here but you know it's worth a shot, isn't it?
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SafetySuit - Someone Like You

Found more new music today, it's brilliant.


I love it, It just makes me really happy tbh and I think that I might share the happiness with you.

Tokyo Rose - The Promise In Compromise -
http://rapidshare.com/files/37090022/Tokyo_Rose-The_Promise_In_Compromise-_Advance_-2007-FNT.rar


The Get Up Kids - Eudora
http://rapidshare.com/files/66980959/A2PE.rar or http://www.megaupload.com/?d=70JRLYL8

Mae - Destination: Beautiful -
http://rapidshare.com/files/30784173/mae_-_destination_beautiful_2003__sharedmp3.net_.rar
PASS: sharedmp3.net

Really good albums.

Enjoy!
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Dead Poetic - Tell Myself Goodbye

I love listening to the radio, you learn about new and exiting bands. It makes my day when I hear some awesome music that I haven't heard before.


I wish that I could find an awesome band everyday which I could listen to all the time.


Stealing o'neal - Caleidoscope

A Heartwell Ending - Trust Us, We Lie

The Butterfly Effect - Imago

Halifax - A Writer's Reference

That's all spelt correctly, as the artist intended before grammar Nazi's start to say that "OMG, it's spelt with a K!!!/111/122!!2?;s;fasfnklsan!!!"

So, yeah. Just wanting to be with my girl. It's really not fair but what can we do about it till she's 16? Nothing. That's what, so we can't moan about it because that will get us no where.

If you ask me nicely, I might give you the links to some of those files :)
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Halifax - Sydney

Was busy with a baby today :)

It was fun. It was nice to concentrating on just one thing, that was just really nice :)

No matter what, I was just focused on that one task.

:)
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Dream State - Place To Rest My Head

Didn't do too much today in all honesty. Just fixed my grandma's computer and solves some software issues that Ray was having with his.

Nothing terribly exiting...

Here is something to excite you though, a really good album that I've been listening to and you can see if I have been on my last.fm account.

It's this:

http://rapidshare.com/files/128626626/Ashes_Divide_-_Keep_Telling_Me_It_s_Alright__2008_.rar.html

Ashes Divide - Keep Telling Me It's Alright.

Really good album, I love how it starts.

Listen :)

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Zebrahead - Be Careful What You Wish For

Just had a brilliant day with Naomi today. I really had a good day. I we just did everything that we wanted to do. It was just a really brilliant day filled with Welsh cakes, Ribina, music, USB drives, burgers and lots of cuddles and kisses.

Just had a really brilliant day with her and I didn't want it to end. Obviously it had to eventually because I had to go to family do. That was, you know... your usual family do where everyone is getting drunk, wishing that you would die and praying that you're anywhere but there.

Alas, that's the day that I have had. It's been brilliant =]
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Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah

Really good tonight in all honesty :)

I had a really good time and drank some nice cider so everything in the world was fine just for that night =]

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Alkaline Trio - Trouble Breathing

Self control is what I need...
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The Getaway Plan - If The Suspense Doesn't Kill Us, Something Else Will...

"If I could change my life...
Be a simple kind of man, try to do the best I can.
If I could take the sides...
I'd derail every path I could;
I'm about to die.
Won't you clear away from me give me strength to fly away?"

I wish that I could post something worthy of reading. But I don't think that I can today in all honesty because there is so much that I want to say but I cannot say it.

That's the problem, that I want to say everything that I can and my blog's would be a mile long each day if I could post what I want to post.

Instead I shall try and explain though pictures what I want from life. If pictures say a thousand words... this is going to be a long one. Some of the things that I have done and some that I will do.















That's what I want =]


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Cold - Wasted Years

Said goodbye to Blenk today, that's a really sad thing to say because I am not going to see him 'till... I don't know. I really don't know when or if I am going to see him again. I probably will but the thing is that I just don't know when I am going to.

It's odd to think how things have been and how they've always been. Just how things can change in an instant. Things that can be immovable, unmissable and unforgettable can be moved, missed and forgotten in an instant.

What would be nice is if people actually did what they wanted to do, obviously within parameters. If you want something, if you truly want something, get it. No matter what it is. Just make it happen.

I was down the pub and I saw this guy who at school was you know, going to make it far and all of that. I am further than him right now and if it goes on like this I shall always be.

We always dream of how things used to be and that's good because you're looking back at the fun times that you had and you're just thinking and remembering when life was 'simpler.'

But the thing is that you can't live in the past all of your life. It's called the past for a reason because it has gone and you need to let it go. You can't go around wishing what you wanted back then because things change, people die, people move on and away and it will never be the same. As you're reading this, this is the past; it's gone. You cannot change what has happened when you're reading this because you cannot change it. You can change the future like you could stop here and go and grab a cup of coffee or just stand up and jump but when you've sat down again to read the rest of this; that's in the past.

Nothing can be done about it, it's gone. You've got the future, try and make the most of it.

"Let's go!"
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Rosie Thomas - All The Way To New York City

I went out to the Pub with Sam and it was nice, we just had a couple of pints/drinks and a nice chat.

Then went down to the George and I saw Sean and Jack which was nice because I haven't seen them for a long time.
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Alkaline Trio - I Lied My Face Off

Didn't do many things today tbh, there are very few things that are productive that I did.

One of them was organise my iPod and the other one I cannot say.

It's been quite a boring day but it's had it's ups and lows. Wanted to go to Blenk's BBQ but it was pissing it down and it does take a long time there and back in the rain and I would get really pissed on because it was hammering it down.

So, he's moving to Barcelona, Spain. Fair enough to him. People are going to be sad and depressed for quite a while, and that's fine but thing is that people move on, people move and people die too.

Things can't stay the same forever, I learnt that at an early age with things like "Families can be together forever" and then my family splits up. Because sure, that means forever... :s

Nothing lasts forever and tbh, I was only eight so I can't say that I wish that I was naive and all the other things that I would usually do if it had happened to be recently.

Oh well, you know things happen and people move on and that's what's going to happen. That's what is happening.
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Mother Love Bone - Bone China

I went to see Naomi today :)

It was a really lovely day and I have to say that she's pretty fucking amazing tbh.

We just bummed around Cardiff all day because I cannot go back to hers. That's defiantly not made of win but you know...

I just had a really nice day :)

It was lovely. :)
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Alice In Chains - Man In The Box

It was Dad's in school day today, it was nice and I only managed to trick one person that I am actually a dad and that was Poppi, the gullible twat that she is. :p

But yeah, that was the highlight of my day, things are flying around in my head right now and it's really not doing me that much good. I wish that everything came out just as you planned it or just as you thought that it would come out.

I just wish that things in there would settle and die, to be frank, I really wish that my thoughts really would just leave me. Justlet me get on with my life and let me think about the only things that I wish to think about; not the thoughts that trouble and quesiton my every move, action and deed.

I just want to sleep and just... sleep. I don't want to dream and I don't want to be awoken, I just want to sleep. How hard is it to do that, just have one day, just one night of what I want to do with my body, to just do what I really want to do. I just want to do what I want to do and in theory it's really easy to implement, but in practise it is practically impossible.

I just wish that I was somewhere other than where I am right now, I just want to be where I want to be with the people or the person that I want to be, and for a change I know where I want to be. I want to be in Washington, in the District of Columbia looking at the night's sky and seeing the explosions of celebration over head.

That's what I want to be doing, that's what I really want to be doing but that's just something that I am not going to be doing for a couple of years. I just want to be where I want to be and I want to think what I want to think, also I want to do what I want to do.

How hard is that to do? Apparently and as I have learnt from experience...Very!

"Now I'm in control
Now I'm in the fall out
Once asleep but now I stand
And I still remember
Your sweet everything
Light a Roman candle
And hold it in your hand"



That's what I want tonight, just for tonight, give me some rest bite please?
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Soundgarden - 4th Of July

Today has really been Sam and Langley's day. I was around hers all day pretty much.

I saw Jenny this morning which really was lovely because I haven't seen her in litterally years and I really do mean, years. This is the first time that I've seen her since she went to Australia.

It was lovely.

Samantha and I went shopping and she got a dress for her outfit, a belt, a pair of jeans and a hair band too. We went back to hers and fucked.

That's a joke. We went back to hers and altered her dress and made it look really really good in all honesty and we got around the whole boob problem too.

Then I was with her till her date picked her up and it was cute to see how nervous she was. Then I spoke to Naomi on the phone for a couple of hours and that was lovely also.

I love that girl. :)

"Tenancy agreement in post plus one for your friend. Dependant on which rooms you choose July and August will be half rent (payable now)and full rent as from 1st September 2008 payable one month in advance via direct debit/standing order. I will let you have the bank details on return of the tenancy agreement.

The larger front room is £45 per week and the middle room £40 per week."
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Hit The Lights - Tell Me Where You Are

Nothing really today, this is because it's been to rainy to do anything. I was going to go and do some things like errands and the such like but the thing is that I'm going to have to do them tomorrow because it's been to wet to do them today.

It's going to be fun the next couple of months and the ones after that because everything is going to be on my terms and mine only. "Wake Me Up When September Ends"? Will you?

It's going to be made of win, epic lulz will ensue and I think that there might be a ROFLCOPTER in there somewhere.

My own house and I can't wait for that, it's really going to be amazing. I just can't wait for it all. I really want September to be here now because I want to be back at University because I love it there, I can be whomever I want to be and that's ok.

Being there I am different person and it's pretty amazing the transformation, I just want to be able to be in my house at one o'clock in the morning reading for a politics test that I'll be sat there reading with BBC News 24 on in the back ground as I am drinking a cup of coffee.

It's going to be amazing :)
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Nirvana - Mexican Seafood

As I look at the stars tonight and they're just totally beautiful.

Just like I am able to reach them if I stretch enough.

Just maybe...
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Evanescence - Where Will You Go